My Journey (so far)

Testimony to be Given to Connecticut Judiciary Committee

Fri, 23 Feb 2007 13:52:59 -0500

Chairmans Lawlor and McDonald and the Connecticut Judiciary Committee: I am a citizen of this state, and I am citizen of this country. Like any other citizen I have been held responsible and I have

Looking Back

Wed, 1 Nov 2006 13:13:52 -0500

It’s the first of November and am looking forward to a new year. Hopefully this one will be better than the last, although 2006 is ending in a much more positive way than it started. I just re-read

Prejudice and Intolerance

Fri, 1 Sep 2006 09:31:28 -0400

Several individuals at the club/restaurant that I hang at have a problem with me. I am sure it deals with the dressing. Chances are they have sexual issues themselves. I must say that it has been b

Writings To A Friend

Fri, 21 Jul 2006 05:19:30 -0400

I have a friend who I met when Rene’ first ventured out. She has suffered ADD and depression all her life. We write each other occasionally and share our thoughts on our lives. Following are my r

I’m doing amazingly well-Thank you for asking!

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 08:26:29 -0400

So much has happened to me since my last entry. Probably the most important is that the clinical depression is gone and I am off of anti-depressants. Its been almost 2 months now. I didn’t want to

Real Art Ways and Triangles

Sun, 23 Apr 2006 12:39:14 -0400

On Thursday of this week, I went to the monthly cocktail party at Real Art Ways in Hartford ( http://www.realartways.org/ ). Was a very nice time and I feel I am passing better than ever. A picture

This is Me

Tue, 11 Apr 2006 18:56:25 -0400

Just about 18 months since I first ventured out. In December 2005, after a year of evaluations, I receive the official diagnosis of transsexualism-weird!. I have never been so busy and it seems that

Opening Doors

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 14:08:55 -0500

I finally seek professional help. I see a specialist in the area of transsexualism. She also specializes in relationships where one of the partners is transsexual. K comes with me, but just once.

Rene’ Begins Her Adventure

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 15:20:40 -0500

Well I certainly take to being Rene’ quickly. I bought a wig, posted pictures on the net, dressed at a cTView meeting which is a support group for transgendered persons, met two girls, Kyra and Joann

Is This Me?

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 15:14:10 -0500

All alone in a hotel room and thinking about the steps to take. First I have to make sure this is right for me. I have to try and see what it is to live in a female role and wether or not it fits me

A Time to Take Inventory

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 14:57:44 -0500

I look at my life and realize that with all I’ve done and things I’ve tried, my life has little value to me. For years I’ve thought about suicide the way men think about sex. I’m getting to realize

Bankruptcy and Tougher Times

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 14:50:05 -0500

Me and 2 business associates start a new business. One of my partners dies and the other can’t take the stress and has a breakdown. The company fails. As a result of personal guarantees, K and I ha

Feeling Creative

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 14:45:39 -0500

A friend of my son encourages me to start playing guitar again. I had always played a little but in June I decide to get serious. I start writing songs again. My first song is about depression and

Brain Storm

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 14:41:39 -0500

I think its Tom Wolfe that describes depression as a storm in the brain. It is the way things feel in my head. I have no idea what has brought the depression on but its the worst I’ve ever experienc

Calm Before the Storm

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 09:56:04 -0500

It gets pretty tough at the start of the new business but eventually things get better. Our income soars but little is saved. The business requires a lot of travel so I’m not home much. Things don’

The Changing Years

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 09:48:30 -0500

So we move to Connecticut because my employer’s (Enron btw) business is sold. We start a new business with business associates that starts off well but will end up badly. Our equity partner is invo

The First Ten Years

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 09:24:59 -0500

Life is great. My wedding was one of the happiest times for me. Can’t remember ever being that happy. We both have great jobs. We buy a house in the country, have two children, a boy and a girl-pe

The Better Years

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 09:20:30 -0500

Finally meet a girl I like. But does she like me? I can’t tell-but I do care if she does. I start to feel much better about myself-normal. I find out she’s 5 years younger than me and question if

Dark Days

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 09:14:53 -0500

Guess I was just there for her amusement. The cute little blonde dumps me when her boyfriend returns from the Navy. Back into depression that will last a few years. Get a new job, do volunteering w

Rhinelander, WI

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 09:10:56 -0500

We did ok at the races. We make it to the finals after 2 weeks of racing. We are in the lead when we have an engine fail. Oh well, that’s racing. The partying in Rhinelander was great. We take the

Snowmobile Racing

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 12:59:22 -0500

I’m now the crew chief of a snowmobile racing team. A van, 2 snowmobiles, a $100 per weekend job and all expenses paid. Does it get any better? We party so much we usually have hang overs the day

College Years

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 12:44:05 -0500

The Rest of High School

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 12:38:30 -0500

Just can’t get into it at all. I learn how to keep up my grades just high enough and maintain a B average. I love science and actually win the high school Science Fair. I also get first grants from

My Sports Career Ends

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 12:35:46 -0500

My father comes to me one evening and says that with my three sisters going to college I would have to pay my own way when it is my turn to go to college. He suggests that I start to go to work afte

Playing Sports in High School

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 12:31:27 -0500

I am playing freshman football. I have no reason why except that its expected of me. However, I find that I like it better than baseball. I play safety and am pretty good at it. The varsity coach

Puberty and Liking Girls

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 13:44:45 -0500

Well thank god I’m normal….almost. Girls turn me on and I see them in a sexual context. However, I sometimes wonder what it would be like to be one of them. I find that I’m quite shy around girls an

Dressing and Wanting to be a Female

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 13:42:40 -0500

What is wrong with me? Why do I like wearing female clothes? Why do I have dreams about being a girl? Life sucks! At least I’m not homosexual-I don’t like guys. Yuck, what a terrible thought to be

Playing Sports

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 13:27:39 -0500

Well I’ve learned to throw well and can hit the ball a mile sometimes. I have a strong arm so I play third base cause I can make the throw to first base. I could be a better fielder though. Actually

Starting to play sports

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 11:27:13 -0500

Kids laugh at me because I’m the smallest kid in class-also the youngest and not very good in sports. I get beaten up all the time but never back down. I throw and run like a girl I’m told. Even